Third day with ARK Crystal
There is definitely something going with this ARK Crystal !!
When I drink water with Syrian rue seeds, I feel my prana more. I feel it as liquid white rainbow light in my body and outside of it. When I drink the Syrian rue, I feel it more with my head and it’s visual- I see a little bit of rainbow halo out of the corner of my eyes, sometimes.
With the ARK, I feel my energy body more. In spite of much yoga asana, I don’t think much about my energy body in a particular lexicon or anatomy. I feel the meridians throughout my body more. I feel the field outside my body. It feels more physical as opposed to in my head.
I’ve had thoughts/ awareness of my chakra layout and how this influences my interactions with others.
I feel I am radically dehydrated.
Last night, as I lay down to go to sleep, I had the idea to imagine my personal inner landscape. I have this place that I’ve been cultivating for many years in guided meditations, etc. and it’s a landscape. I went there and then I was kinda like drawn into a third eye tunnel, really easily. It felt like remote viewing. I was moving quickly on a road in what I think of as Utah or Arizona and I heard a voice say, “you belong here.”
I can learn to remote view.
I’ve been going through a lot of personal development especially in the last two years. In January 2019, I made a major shift in my life. I decided to stop tolerating abuse from bullies. I spent about a year and a half examining my psychology. I even did some sessions with a psychologist. Long story short, I grew up in emotional abuse. It was kind of unacknowledged. I was codependent. I noticed that all my relationships with men have been codependent. I once dated a guy who was healthy and I broke up with him cause it felt weird.
I realized that being put down was normal because that’s how my mom communicates.
My intention with the ARK crystal was to fully shed my skin and that’s kind of what has happened in the last 48 hrs. Recently, I spent a lot of time analyzing the patterns and then sort of being with them. The series of eclipse was great for me because it was a gateway and I basically felt in a new chapter and it sort of felt like I had a little bit of stuck shed that needs to be removed; I was thinking about the past and sort of stuck in resentment. I’ve let go of some of the resentment by staying more in my energy field, more in my business. Shit happens and other peoples’ shit isn’t my shit.
For me the big thought transformations have been around not needing to help people with their shit. I don’t need to overburden myself. I doesn’t serve anybody.
I’ve come into an awareness that I am quite energetically empathic. I feel stuff but I don’t know what Im feeling. An energy worker once told me that probably a lot of the ideas I experience aren’t mine. This resonated. I’ve been transforming around not attaching to the ideas. I acknowledge that Im the one who empowers the ideas with my focus.
So with the ARK I’ve gotten clarity around my energy anatomy. The last 36 hrs have been discernment around what is me and what isn’t me.
This morning, I did a yoga asana practise and I felt more integrated. Core strength is a challenge for me. It’s challenging to do postures which require integration of upper and lower body. I felt more physically integrated. I did an intuitive flow and I found myself inspired to go to more challenging poses- I did bakasana (crow pose) and managed to hold it for a while. I did forearm balance preps which for me are usually a big " i can’t ". I felt aware and strong.
… the ARKventure continues…