It feels right to be here. I’ve been quite avoiding of forums and discussions pretty much all my life and I can attribute this to my autism. I’m now 38 and I was diagnosed by my therapist just last year. This is relevant because I get the sense I feel welcomed and understood. Its the vibe, energy (however you want to call it) of this group that just clicks with me.
Ive been on a spiritual journey for the last 2 and half years. It started as a curiosity for human behaviour which led me to my own understanding. Made a few great leaps when I decided to go to the therapist, again digging deeper into the root of my struggles. Coincidentally (or not), it was around the same time I discovered philosophy and read and listened to Alan Watts religiously (I still do).
Before this journey started I considered myself an atheist and a very logical person. There was nothing for me except what I could see, touch and measure. Now I have a completely different worldview, constructed from my own theories and experienced and reinforced by the content Ive discovered here and in some other sources. I discovered the power of Love and Compassion, merely concepts before, and until I haven’t really accepted and forgiven myself, I didn’t know what they were. Now I KNOW and the knowing is deep.
I also had quite recently a mystical experience which really showed me that this creative energy, this infinite field of consciousness does exist. I’ve seen it and felt it and I am still incapable of describing it.
So my journey brought me to Resonance, to a place where my experiences and current understanding of…THIS …are unified and I can start exploring further. My general interest continues to be human Consciousness and I feel that there is no other mission for me to have as a living being and a first person “user” of this body. I’m still learning and thats why I’m here for.
Its quite amusing now that Im writing this that some time ago I had Science without God, I had to leave Science to find God and in finding God I found Science again. As Watts might say, “you cant have one without the other, they go together”. Probably its the case here.
So anyway, my name is Lucian, I’m from Romania and I work in the gaming industry
Glad to be here and happy to meet you all.